The only thing that makes me feel worse than loosing one of ours is the thought there are so many suffering in shelters that would be absolutely honored to take the place of the one we lost.
Please don't punish yourself after the loss of a pet you are close to. It's not doing you or your former best friend one ounce of good. Go find another one as soon as you are able. You'll be rewarded for doing so for years....
1997 37' HR Endeavor, 275hp Cat, Freightliner
03 CR-V Blue Ox, Ready Brake