Gosh darn it to heck already!

From 90 mph winds to mmega rain. From new battery now my tail lights won't shut off . From storms from hell to loosing both vents, bad roof job that leaks, most defenantly water damage. .. and top it off with trying to find work, surviving on pennies yet I don't qualify for food stamps? Unemployment is a joke. The system is failing and I'm watching it from the front lines. Setting up for failure. Sooo whats next? Lol.
When I chose Rving I didn't plan on so much bad happening. I new there would be some learning curves, but what the heck. It wasn't too bad until I lost my job. I have had bad luck my whole life but the last 5 yrs have been the worst. From loosing my best friend, health issues, family drama, account hacked, lost savings and destroyed the little credit I had, to my brother picking me out the most rough unmaintained, neglected filthy RV after all the one owner well cared for owners. They were willing to cut price because of my situation. I'm just numb. I'm trying to keep my chin up. I'm trying not to have a mental break. I'm trying not to give up. I'm trying to understand why? I want to get through this and enjoy my RV, a total wreck or whatever, it's mine and my home. I want to park under the redwoods and enjoy the much needed peace. I want to make my craft nook, paint, listen to music, have a scotch, bbq, enjoy my cats enjoying there front window and views. I have to say the one good thing is my cats transitioned great and love it. I have a few spots I visit and feec the strays. I rescued one and got him well and he's with my daughter. I miss him so much but one of my girls really wouldn't budge on giving him a chance. I gave it 3 months. I cried my eyes out he was the polar opposite of my girl, so he was a sweet cuddle bug, awkward, goofy and so grateful to be rescued. Anyway. We will see what tomorrow will bring. " Just keep swimming"